Monday, December 31, 2012

The Theory is Broken

Continuing with the discussion for intelligent design from the previous post, here is a documentary I watched and highly recommend.  "Unlocking the Mystery of Life"  It takes you through it step by step very thoughtfully. I really enjoyed it. Leave me a comment and let me know what you think.

In the movie caption area/description there is a linked list of all of the sections of the documentary; they're about 9-10 minutes apiece. (These were posted back when YouTube had a 10 minute limit on films, which they've done away with a few years ago.) The third and forth 'movies' are the most convincing sections of the intelligent design argument in my opinion. It's a building argument, though, so make sure you watch the whole show and not just a few parts. The scope of the argument will leave you awestruck and then dumbfounded as to why exactly we're still arguing about this with all our technological prowess today. 

The scientists interviewed acknowledge there are religious implications for intelligent design but they don't dwell on it or try to beat you over the head with it. They're concerned with the study of molecular biology and the origin of the simplest forms of it. 

The source code for DNA is a given difficulty for those Darwinians who want to state a simple view that it all just arranged itself through chance or some built in(who built it??) magnetism. But 'irreducible reductionism' is really the very heart of the issue. Darwinians want to say that things are 'borrowed' from other sections or previously existing varieties of the type of machine present today in the cell. But where did those previous machinations come from? Who told them to change? If something happens slowly then how does it survive in the meantime with a changed environment which is demanding those changes for survival now? You can only break components of a machine's parts down so far before the argument is moot. You can't build something out of nothing! And I think that last part is what makes Darwinian's crazed. They want to say you can put a bowl full of mud with all the basic amino acids and proteins, add ... something(?!)... and voila! There will be life. It doesn't work, it hasn't worked, and it'll never work. People have tried zapping mud with electricity quite a few times. 

This is the most simple break down of the argument in it's all it's complexity:
"Without DNA there is no self replication. But without self replication there is no natural selection. So you can't use natural selection to explain the origin of DNA without assuming the existence of the very thing you're trying to explain." ~Stephen C. Meyer

This is why David Hawkins will never move beyond anything but screeching at the masses about how 'illogical' the God theory is: The burden of the theory of origin lies with the previously existing machine, not the one we have today. We don't know where the previous one came from but surely that one had a progenitor with the same parts somewhere in it's makeup. We think. We're pretty sure. We're not even sure where 95% of those other parts came from but.. whatever. Oh and the nucleus? The first cells probably didn't have them or need them. (I think my brain just did a 180 and came to a screeching halt with that asshat argument. With no instructions then who or what tells the cell to make changes?!)

Yeah, it's a pretty narrow lensed scope Darwinians are looking through. If it doesn't fit, toss it! But that's how they say natural selection occurred. If that's the case then where did all those billions upon billions of potential choices come from? Something inside the cell decided these things. What is it?  

"If it could be demonstrated that any complex organ existed which could not possibly have formed by numerous successive slight modifications my theory would absolutely break down."      ~Charles Darwin
Holy cow. Really? Isn't that rather ironic in the context of the argument being given about something as simple as the bacterial flagellum(tail/propeller) which is necessary for all life on our planet?

I ask the following question for all those in education or who have children being educated: why are we still teaching this?

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Ben Stein vs. Richard Dawkins

This evening I watched Ben Stein's Expelled: No Intelligence Allowed documentary. It's a look at how evolutionists(Darwinists) have placed a stranglehold on academic discussion on intelligent design. Their reasoning? If you allow intelligent design discussion then we'll end up back in the Dark Ages where science is lost to religion.

Here's the full length movie on YouTube.

The academics Ben Stein speaks with on Darwinism make a valid point while getting to the meat of the argument itself: Darwin never explained the ORIGIN of man at all, just what he thought happened after the atoms were already arranged! And that is the place there Darwinists and Creationists painfully collide. Midway between them, leaning a little more right than left, you have intelligent design. "Something awfully smart created those first atoms! So intelligent that we're unraveling layers upon layers of mysteries within the atom itself every year!" 

The sentiment expressed continually throughout the film is that the continued study of Darwinism for scientists eventually leads to atheism. I want to say that I can see this would be true for at least those academics and scientists who don't have a backbone and/or only want to climb the academic ladder to stardom and money. Or at least tenure and a somewhat comfortable retirement plan. However, I have also personally known many teachers, scientists, and those who began as scientists but left the field who have said that the further they looked at science overall then the more religious they became-- not the reverse. But if they had only the confines of Darwinism to use as a template for all their accepted work then yes, they'd have suffered a crisis of faith or just seen their curiosity wither and die. I think perhaps this may be the intent of the establishment.  Those teachers I knew who became more spiritual at the end did leave the field for other private studies. They knew their career was at stake because they could not in good conscience teach something they knew was false.

One of the highlights of the film came at 1:27(that's one hour and twenty-seven minutes) Richard Dawkins explains why he believes in intelligent design! It's a riot because afterwards Ben Stein asks him to clearly state that he does not believe in any god or God of any religion whatsoever. However Richard Dawkins doesn't even hear what he'd previously admitted. He wasn't tricked into anything. There was no slick sophistry involved. Here's part of the conversation. To see the full thing you'd have to watch the movie : 

Richard: "So it couldn't have just jumped into existence spontaneously." 

Whoooahhh! Wait. Isn't that what the anti-creationists aka. DARWINISTS are trying to shove down everyone's throats including the Big Bang Theory?! That somehow this... thing... just happened and there was nothing intelligent about it?!  But a so-called hard core atheist thinks that someone super smart(elsewhere in the universe, of course) designed us(is he hearing himself?!), planted our genome here on this planet and then ...... sped off back to whatever lovely world they came from. But of course that race of super smart beings or being evolved by some Darwinian process themselves, because you know Darwinism has to play into our genesis at some point right?

Chicken and egg, Richard. I'm calling bullshit on that, my friend. Who made that first race of beings who supposedly made us? ... if they did indeed evolve Darwinian style and were not spontaneously sprouted from some God's head fully formed.

The logistics of this argument make my head spin! It seems quite obvious to me at this point that the most obvious questions are not being asked in the classroom and unfortunately for the child who does want to ask .... I think their teacher may be inclined to not engage the child in conversation at all because they fear for their job.

An idea I've been pondering and refining for some time now: Man created religion as a way to explain the mysteries of God Science. Within gnosis we're able to see the forest(we live in it) AND the trees(we dream them) because we soar above it through his eyes to see what it is he wants to share. That intrinsic and basic connection we share with him is what gives us our sense of wonder, our sense of awe about the universe and even the trees and butterflies. Being the body of the All itself, how can we not be amazed?

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Gravity Light Technology!

GravityLight: lighting for the developing countries from Therefore on Vimeo.

I'd like to know when this will be available to the rest of the world. My electric bill isn't getting any cheaper. 

Isn't it uplifting to see what amazing things engineers are coming up with? While there's always those who want to build bombs and weapons and the like, you've also got guys like this who are devoted to building toward the future in a positive way while lessening the impact on our planet. 

I hope they get the funding they need.  If you know of anyone who's interested and capable of helping them out, please spread the word!

Friday, December 21, 2012


A blast from the past. Part of a 60 Minutes episode on swine flu in 1979. Pay special attention the info being presented starting at 4:00 forward.

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Here's a transcript of the whole interview. 

5:38... Dr. Sencer from the CDC is spectacular. "There had been several reported but none confirmed."  

So we've never seen this virus. But we have a vaccine for it. Aren't they smart? (i.e. $$$$$ savy) What's even more spectacular is that we now know that the 1918 Spanish Flu wasn't flu at all. It was a bacterial infection of the lungs which is completely different from influenza. Compounded with poor diet, stress, and lack of antibiotics... yes, people died.

And not only that but the second batch of the 1976 vaccine(which was a different formula from the first) wasn't even under the scrutiny of trials before they were rolled out and injected into millions of unsuspecting human beings.

Dr. Michael Hattwick's admission that they knew about the flu vaccines causing neurological illness is stunning. He was very matter of fact about it. 

This is a link to the last six minutes of that video.  It continues on right in the middle of the last sentence that asshat bureaucrat from the CDC left off. 

He wiggles around like a worm on a hook. Squirm squirm squirm. And then he finally admits that they DID know about the neurological damage from flu vaccines! But, as he said, "The consensus of the scientific community was that they did not feel that this association was a real one." In essence he hands down responsibility of the decision to withhold the information to people in the lab. ... but wait. HE was the director of the CDC! 

The bit about Mary Tyler Moore and other famous people being used in the ad campaigns... hilarious. Mary looks fabulous back in that 1979 news slot, by the way.

I found this 1977 book written by Eleanora McBean, Ph.D, N.D.  called Swine Flu Expose. It's a great read!   She even goes a bit into water fluoridation at the very end because she realized(along with others) that there is a direct correlation between highly fluoridated cities and illness. There's an index there so you can skip around; it's not all one big huge document. Very easy on the eyes.

One last note: In 'Questions and Answers, June 24th, 1011" Doctors at the CDC now quietly admit on their website that the "CDC does not know exactly how many people die from seasonal flu each year."  They are backing away from the 36,000 influenza death figure previously quoted in their other literature. The CDC now says that "only 8.5 percent of all pneumonia and influenza deaths and only 2.1 percent of all respiratory and circulatory deaths" are influenza related.

In other words, it ain't gonna kill ya unless it's complicated with something else! So grab your box of tissues, drink chicken broth, and take some fever reducer. We don't need vaccines for the flu.


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Gate's Philosophy of Immunology and Population: Get your flu shot!

The CDC has once again put out dire predictions for this year's flu virus, AKA: "It's going to be bad, folks. Come on down and get your shot. We know you're probably going to be sick as a dog for a few days afterward and will miss work but isn't it better than you plan such things rather than it happen spontaneously when someone sneezes on you?!"

I'd like to leave all my Readers with one quote from a well known voice and then I'll leave the topic well enough alone. Unless I get the flu this year. Then you're not going to shut me up. But the chances of that happening are nil. I haven't had it in many years. Here's the quote: 

"The world today has 6.8 billion people… that’s headed up to about 9 billion. Now if we do a really great job on new vaccines, health care, reproductive health services, we could lower that by perhaps 10 or 15 percent."

That's straight from the mouth of Bill Gates, who also gives millions upon millions of dollars to fund 'research' and to implement vaccines for people all over the world. Look at his track record and it'll make your bile take a northern trek up your gullet. His research and implementation has made millions sick, caused spontaneous(?!) miscarriages(and not just overseas! Here in the US, too.), as well as increased the already growing number of children on the autism spectrum. 

Don't get your flu shot. Keep your brain and organs intact. 

If your employer is stating that it's mandatory then do Google searches on "employees fight vaccines.flu shots" and be prepared to smile. Folks are fighting this and WINNING!! The Patient Bill of Rights stands firm so don't be bullied. To have a shot is medical procedure which makes you a patient of someone. If that doctor or nurse administering it refuses to sign a liability form against any harm you may suffer then that gives you something to think about, doesn't it? 

The doctors don't want to be held liable. But the pharmaceutical companies won't be held liable for it EITHER and Congress said it's a-ok. Why? Because vaccines are experimental science and you, as the patient, are accepting a 'reasonable risk.' 

The one time I got a flu shot I wound up in the hospital with walking pneumonia, exhaustion, and vaccine overload. No thank you. Never again. Moncrief General Hospital(Army) still wont release my records about my hospital stay, which is not surprising in the least. They had just given my entire company about a dozen vaccines two weeks prior to my lengthy visit to their hospital bed.

Somebody to Love

Queen, singing 'Somebody to Love.' I gotta tell you that between Freddie's killer vocals, his rockin' Superman shirt, and his antic at the end, this guy put on an awesome show. I'd have loved to have been able to see a concert of his. It'd have been a riot, I'm sure.

So where's the gnosis in this song?  Freddie got it about right, I'd say. It's in pink text. Rest in peace, man.  When you break down that far Somebody does indeed lift you up.

"Somebody To Love"

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief,
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

The Bible's Falacies

Just a short five minute clip of Sam Harris raising some reality(not fundamentalist) based points about how most people gloss over the truly grotesque and illuminate the divine aspects of holy books. I thought he was quite eloquent and right on point, which is why I am sharing this with you here. Even fundamentalists would find offense at this.

I was raised with the exact argument he's speaking of, that the Old Testament was wiped away and no longer relevant once Jesus died for the world. And yet the whole time growing up I always wondered why we kept reading the Old Testament.... still can't figure it out. The smartest thing to do would have been to strip away all the(95% of the Old Testament) newly rejected(as forgery or highly questionable) gospel and only talk about what actually pertains to us now. But those two books are still stuck together in the same binding like they belong together.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

The Laughing Christ in the Gospel of Philip

The lord said it perfectly:
"Some have entered the kingdom of heaven laughing, 
and they have come out laughing."
They do not remain there:
one because he is not a Christian,
another because he laments his later acts.
As soon as Christ went down into the water
he came out laughing at everything in this world.,
not because he thought it a trifle, but out of contempt.
whoever wants to enter the kingdom of heaven will do so.
Whoever despises everything of this world, scorn it as a trifle,
will emerge laughing.
So with the bread and the cup and the oil,
for above is one superior to all these. 


The term Christian is being used in a derogatory sense here, as in labeling oneself not being helpful for the soul/aiua to evolve beyond the pettiness which this life can be.

Why would we lament our later acts after spending time with pleroma? I can think of a million reasons. Just one off-hand would be this: resentment that in order to do the right thing we have to stay and deal with the insanity which is this life. So not only do we resent him for at least a moment or two for telling us that we have to stay but we also resent ourselves for feeling such an abhorrent thing for him to begin with. We KNOW that he's right. But that doesn't make us less emotionally inept at dealing with the cold hard facts. In acting out that 'lament' of our later acts we can do some pretty stupid stuff; do things we never would otherwise. Like a typical teenager thumbing their nose at their parents.

The bread and the cup and the oil reference-- think of annointings, blessings, wine, breaking bread and the like. Philip states that these three things themselves are trifles but the heavenly All is superior to all these and we shouldn't get so immersed in ceremony or iconography. 

11/18 addendum:
Looking back at this now I see that the laughing may also have to do with the absurd things pleroma shows a person when immersed within his being. Try being squishie hugged by a Santa Claus/Jim Carrey/Jaques Cousteau type charactor. Loving, irreverently funny, insatiably curious and educational nerd. Yep. That's him. That's The Man.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Donut and Coke Bottle Challenge-- Hint #3

On 7/21/12 I posted an announcement for the Donut and Coke Bottle Riddle.

It has been more than two months and as I promised, I have another hint for you.

As a refresher,  hint #1 was to figure out where each item goes and what astronomical phenomenon it can be equated to. Hint #2 is that it has nothing at all to do with food.

Here is hint #3 to this universal riddle is this: Study the Electric Universe theory. Then study the similarities between quasars and pulsars. Now go back and read about the Electric Universe theory again. Put it all together. What are the similarities with all three? Quasars and pulsars helped us arrive at the Electric Theory to begin with and has helped debunk the Big Bang Theory. (Yeah, that was a trip and a half trying to explain this to my twelve year old high schooler. "Yes, honey, you were taught this particular theory. But now we're rethinking it." Poor kid is living in interesting times...Like suddenly finding out the earth isn't flat.)

Helpful visuals and explanations of the Electric Universe being seen here:  Pay careful attention to the information at 3:00 forward concerning the emitted beams of radiation.  contains a wonderful archive of proof for this theory. Many pictures and examples.


A quasi-stellar radio source ("quasar") is a very energetic and distant active galactic nucleus. Quasars are extremely luminous and were first identified as being high redshift sources of electromagnetic energy, including radio waves and visible light, that were point-like, similar to stars, rather than extended sources similar to galaxies.

This research suggests that, in addition to its mass and spin, the quasar's central compact object may have physical properties more like a highly redshifted, spinning magnetic dipole than like a black hole. For that reason, most approaching matter does not disappear forever, but instead feels the motor-like rotating magnetic field and gets spun back out.

and/or pulsar:

Post a comment below and let me know how you're doing with this riddle. I'd really like to hear from you.

As a side note I must say that it has been increasingly stimulating to think further about this riddle in the context of actual astrological phenomenon. When I arrived at the answer to the riddle I had never heard of the Electric Universe theory or studied quasars or pulsars! I had to literally trip across pictures and information about these things to understand how to make this concept .... edible... for you. Digestible? Eh... I'd get lost in a thesaurus if I tried to come up with a better descriptive than that. 'Edible' works.

Until I learned about these real phenomenon I didn't have a clue as to how to present this riddle challenge. Like a good collection of healing herbs in a cuppa steaming hot water to make tea, the images had been steeping in my brain for a long time but I didn't have the language to use for you. All I had was the visualization and the emotion being shown to me as an explanation for what was happening and why.

Rather like a powerful case of deja vu. Mentally going to a library, reading a whole row of books and later discovering, 'Hey! That looks familiar... I can't remember the name of the books but I know I've learned this stuff before.' Gnostically speaking, sometimes it's creepier than hell. Once you get used to it, yeah, it becomes a bit easier to swallow. But in the beginning or in times of a massive flood of information it can be a little tiring and straining on the brain synapses.

"I read a really great book," is not something we uncommonly say we do in our sleep. Couldn't tell you a whole lot about it besides a few scene frames and grasp at a few ideas which were presented but we do remember that it was captivating. Sometimes TMI and disgusting, and you realize that Somebody sometimes acts like an overgrown toddler poking at something gross saying, "Isn't this awesome!??"  Ok, yes. Biologically speaking, it is awesome and magnificent and deserves to be appreciated. But not when I'm reading about something completely unrelated and You go off on a tangent. I can appreciate the hilarity of the moment but it still activates my gag reflex. Surely I am not the only one He has an affinity to for showing the physical differences between species and all their peculiarities?

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Absent and Now Returned

This blog disappeared for a number of months for a few reasons. A few I can go into and a few I just can't. My apologies for the extended absence. A few Readers have written me wanting to make sure I was still breathing. I am, thank you for your concern. And I hope that the blog continues to exist for quite some time. 

#1 Reason-- I began to receive some pretty scary harassing messages from people. It wasn't your typical literalist Biblical bullshit of, "You're going to hell, bitch! Quit preaching all that love and unity and shit. We hate you!" No. That I can handle. I just shake my head and hope that one day that person finds peace. 

This was more sinister. I research and sometimes even bring to you some of the topics which I find are directly affecting people today. Things like vaccines, education, genocide, political lies and maneuvering, warmongering that my own country is perpetuating, and oh yeah... some religious stuff I find interesting along the way. 

The blog has morphed from a religious documentary of my evolution in gnosis into a (sometimes)rant filled diary about the injustices I see and read about. I can't apologize for that. This blog is personal and I have a really difficult time dividing my attention to write about only certain topics. My husband says that that he (now!)"likes that I'm not a mindless drone" and that I read so much about the world. That didn't used to be the case. I used to drive him crazy bringing up topics like this to discuss. But he's evolved along the way, too. He understands that I can't sit idly by and watch the world turn upside down. The more I talk the more he listens and I can see a subtle change taking place with him over time. This has been gratifying.

These threats, though, have become personal and terrifying. My computer was hacked. My husband's  computer was hacked. My husband works at home and his work computer was in danger because it runs off the same ethernet system. Granted, his employer's firewalls are world class but still, the danger was quite real. 

It's taken all this time to get stuff straightened out so that I can feel somewhat safe posting online again. That does not mean that danger isn't present. I've been hearing and reading about other blogger's websites which have been ripped down for talking about the very same things I do. Obama's NDAA bill doesn't only purport to protect us from foreign terrorists, it claims that American citizens should be thrown in jail without legal representation in exactly the same manner-- and for reasons which should make us all take a hard look at where we are and how exactly we arrived here-- for stating opinions which go against the government, discussing political events with the express purpose of inciting change(I didn't say violence- I said change), and simply being an activist in general. You don't have to say things like you're going to murder someone or say that you're planning some awful bombing. Nope. All you have to do is talk about how shitty the government is and BAM! you're on the NDAA watch list as a possible civilian terrorist. 

Free speech is no longer a right. 

I read a story a while back which was in all the alternative news channels about a woman who was an Occupy activist. She was arrested and thrown into solitary confinement for months without trial or representation. Why? She and two of her buddies(who weren't even in town at the time!) were accused of being involved in violence which took place at an Occupy rally. After months of her friends and family screaming at news stations, writing letters and calling congressmen, and general mayhem, the woman was finally released. Her two friends have not been released and their ordeal has no end in sight. If that first woman had no friends and family who knew where she was she'd have simply been yet another desaparecido.

In the end we have to make a stand. What are we willing to put up with and for how long? Do we run for cover from our own government when WE are supposed to be the government itself? We elect people who no longer represent our opinions. Lobbyists and corporations rule the land, not us.  Our 'representatives' are bought and paid for, with only a few exceptions. 

If my blog is torn down then so be it. At least I was able to enlighten a few people and pass along some information in my brief time here. 

I plan to keep writing and keep hope alive. 

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Back to School Time and Vaccines

Both my boys (11 and 12) got their physicals today and of course we were shown their vaccine records so they could be updated. Now up until three years ago I had no problems with vaccines except for making that decision about my own body(I got pneumonia from a flu and chickenpox vaccine which put me in the hospital for three weeks). About my stepsons, though, this was of course a bit more tricky. Hubby had his own ideas and I had mine.

Through time, reading, and much deliberation, I decided to broach the topic with my husband about discontinuing vaccines with the boys. He fought me hard last year but gave in. This year, after all the ranting I'd done about all the new research on Gardasil killing pubescent girls he finally woke up. The trigger was, I think, that they started pushing it so hard toward BOYS and for the most inane thing: genital warts. Gimme a freaking break. Warts never killed anyone. 

"Son, I'm terribly sorry but if you don't get this potentially deadly vaccine your penis may not be as attractive to a woman." 

I hope that sounded just as ridiculous to you as it does to me. 

Cervical cancer? Ok, yeah. I can agree with there being a need for a vaccine-- if one did exists which was SAFE!-- to protect our girls. But when you give a girl the Gardasil vaccine, she gets WARTS on her body, and after a lot of other complications then drops dead-- well. I have to say that there's a sick sort of irony in there somewhere. 

If you see a sudden surge in adolescent boys with genital warts in the next decade or so ehh... I'll leave you to draw your own conclusions about why and how that might be coming about. This puts me in mind of our  dear ex-president saying emphatically, "I. Did. Not. Have. Sex. With. That. Woman." (But he did ruin her dress.)

Also, if they can come up with a vaccine for cervical/penile/anal cancers and genital warts then why the hell can't they cure breast cancer yet? With as much money thrown at the Komen foundation I have to wonder where all that money is going. They have a vaccine for several cancers but can't kill it? 

A vaccine for CANCER but we still can't cure the common cold? I do not believe for a minute that the science behind this is based in reality. Wishful thinking, maybe, for those who have been affected by these cancers or warts in some way but realistically speaking: what is the gain here? You can't cure the people who are already sick besides irradiating them and injecting them with poisons and then hope their immune system reboots. It's a crapshoot. 

Getting back to my boys being hounded to get their vaccines today. The nurse was nervous and shoved a pile of papers at me when I informed her we were declining. The doctor, however, was more composed and wanted a specific reason. I was pretty blunt. I told her that when the companies which are making these vaccines remove four items then we'll get vaccinated again. 
  1. Thiomersal 
  2. Squalene
  3. Aluminum
  4. Polysorbate 80
She said that all of these ingredients serve a purpose in the vaccine and that they can't remove them. I told her that I don't recall reading in my multivitamin information insert that the human body has a deficiency of any of those ingredients. 

"Well, I give my kids these same vaccines and I feel comfortable doing so." 

"I'd like my documentation on the physical so we can leave." 

She left the room and got me the paperwork and that was that. Here's the list of vaccines she wanted to give my twelve year old boy: 
  1. HPV(Gardasil)
  2. Meningococcal
  3. Hepatitis A
  4. TD or Tdap
  5. Chickenpox
Five. That's FIVE vaccines with all of those insidious ingredients that he would have gotten today if I hadn't spoken up. That's five shots of thiomersal, five shots of squalene, five shots of aluminum, and five shots of polysorbate 80. 

Considering the fact that this twelve year old is probably going to be in college by the time he's fourteen or fifteen he certainly doesn't need all this crap floating around in his brain! Although some days I am tempted to gag him to protect him from himself and his ever-eloquent and comedic smart mouth, the truth is that at some point he's going to outgrow this phase and learn how to not sound like such a snot. I'm willing to wait. But I certainly don't want to deprive him of the chance to do that by turning him into another stupefied sheep. We've got too many already. 

The whooping cough vaccine(Tdap) certainly hasn't helped all those people the past few years which have contracted it. Seventy percent of the people who've contracted it were vaccinated! Herd immunity theory is debunked with that alone. 

The more I read about school districts trying to force the Gardasil vaccine on children in their school clinics even without parental consent the more strongly I began to feel about refusing further vaccines for the boys. You have to ask yourself why these pharmaceutical companies are so gosh darn insistent that our little boys shouldn't have genitial warts and our little girls have to be protected from cervical cancer-- especially when it's now shown that the only thing the Gardasil vaccine can positively do is give a false negative on a Pap smear. Congratulations. They just killed another woman. If that's not proof of a soft kill operation then I don't know what more people need to see.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

"Christ and the Soul" in Gospel of Philip

I believe gnosis is universal, timeless, and didn't only begin in the Christian era of when Christ lived and died. How could it be that Plato and all the dozens of other proto-gnostics wrote allegories using symbolism Christians and other Mystery religion sects did centuries later? One followed the other, yes, but there are such gaps in time and space that it almost seems impossible to reconcile. 

It doesn't make sense because they were so removed from one another, despite the evidence that a few of them maintained a correspondence and became on again/off again teachers. These schools were wiped out time and time again. Gnosis can't be learned or felt with only a few letters exchanged. Momentum needs to be built, forward thinking and actions are needed to propel a thing like gnosis into a community affair or even be accepted as a 'muse' which one can count on for truth and comfort.

The best theory about how gnosis has traveled through time is that these themes are universal to the human psyche and within pleroma these thoughts are a constant. Time is not linear within him and I think this is the most difficult concept to accept. Daydreams and nightdreams are used as vehicles for communication. With us being so interconnected, if you consider that as a possibility then it all comes into focus quite sharply that there is no true original thought or idea. No one has a patent on anything! We're just very good at recycling and re-finding/re-imagining and refurbishing what has already been imagined countless times before. 

Think of the many 'renaissances' which have existed before now.  Count the many monuments left behind by civilizations which have flourished and then fallen- too many to count, really. We have all the evidence we need to say definitively: human beings are endlessly creative and tirelessly spiritual in nature. We are not atheist in nature! We are creative beings who want to connect to the divine in every way. It's what we long for when we are awake and when we dream. Why else would we go to such extremes, swinging madly between dark chaos and filth all the way over to courtly love and saccharine sweet paintings of rather naughty flying dresses?

Enchantingly beautiful, isn't she? Flirty and living in the moment on that swing. And the shoe! Do you see it? She's so happy and carefree that she is smiling even as her left shoe goes flying off her foot. Of course the paramour she's teasing in front of her is enjoying the spectacle of her happiness. Pleroma is like that handsome lover, grinning at us saying, "There you go! Live and love and laugh. I wants to see it and experience it with you!"

Is there gnosis in paint? What about in a bottle of Smirnoff? .... I have to say 'yes' to both of those. I tend to get a little more lyrical with my own paintbrush when I combine it with a good stiff drink or five. And you know what? There's nothing wrong with that!! It's the experience which matters; the internal dialogue which takes place and in which we find answers. It's the experience of life itself which drives us higher and higher, like the lady on that swing, to reach toward the gentle light of love which we feel deeply within us. A lot of times it difficult to see pleroma around us but when we center ourselves once more we can branch out from there and learn to truly live again.

When you have a run in with a person or even a group of people and you think: "Man, they really need to retract that stick up their @#$%. They'd be happier."  You are on the path of gnosis. Seeing unhappiness and gnowing(<-- My fingers slipped on the keyboard but it's funny so I'm keeping it) the solution to it is gnosis demystified. Truly, it is that simple. What brings you peace? To be exclusive or to be inclusive? Are you happy hating other people? Don't you think the divine wants us to be One or to be many and fight endless wars with one another?

And those riddle-like verses in the gnostic gospels aren't always built with a hundred layers like a french Opera cake. Some, like the  Gospel of Philip can be read quite literally- but only if you know the players. 

Christ as the Savior of humanity:
"Christ came to buy. He rescued and redeemed,
redeeming aliens. He made strangers his own.
He brought his own and made promises,
construing a strategy, and gave his life
when he appeared and when the world began.
Then he came and took back what he promised,
which fell into the hands of thieves. They captured it,
but he rescued it back. Then he redeemed
both the good and evil people of the world."

Could Philip be talking about literalists overtaking the gnostic sects with the line 'came and took back what he promised which fell into the hands of thieves'? Or maybe he's speaking of Judas 'stealing' what belonged to the world and which left the world(at least in the flesh) because of his deeds?

Either way you want to interpret this passage, the crucifixion story is not original only to Christian tradition. Nearly every religion has a holy person which is sacrificed in some way for knowledge or need of a group of people for what their death can offer. Why is that? Why this need for sacrifice?

Thursday, August 16, 2012

A New Martyr?

I really sense it's about the hit the fan for Assange. 

From the gnostic perspective he is a bit of a dramatic hero; serving up the Truth cold and bitter tasting while politicians scream and yell in their offices, "Off with his head!"

I'm just praying the guy doesn't get taken out by a sniper. It's good to hear that he's still working, though, while being holed up in that embassy. I think the only currency he could use in trade for Ecuador's help is to bury their secrets a bit longer. 

Nap Time and Play Time

 Last summer, me and my boy taking a nap. Killer Kitty rarely vegges out with me like this. That day though I guess he was in the mood for major mommy cuddles.

This is also last summer, right before it got really hot and Big Mouth got shaved.  On her back is riding(courtesy of my husband) a Transformer toy named "Scrapheap." She doesn't look too enthused but Scrapheap is having a ball.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Learned or Just Innate Laziness?

I don't want to spell out specifics on this topic, I'm sure you can think of at least ten different scenarios in your own life, but today it hit me as hard as a fifty car train on full speed-- what the hell is wrong with people?! Yes, it was one of those days where only a blanket sort of question could cover all the bases. The expletives were bad. Fortunately(or not) they were all in my head. Saying things aloud just doesn't help anymore. Like seeing an asshat driver doing something totally stupidly dangerous and you stamp your hand on the wheel ten times to honk your horn at them in frustration only to discover that your horn doesn't work. I actually do know what that's like. Both horns are broken in both our cars. So yes, very frustrating.

I'm starting to think that my own generation is the 'learned' lazies and our children's generation is the 'innate' variety of lazy. It's just so much easier not to do something even though it's staring you right in the damn face. Because you know someone else will probably take care of it. I wasn't raised lazy but another close family member was. The contrast in our personalities is a stinging reminder of just what divides us. It's aggravating as hell to deal with.

School for our boys starts on the 20th. Yippy Ki Yay. I am resolved(that's getting to be a joke) to doing only two things this year while they are in school: working and cooking dinner. Nothing else. Nada. I'm not getting caught up in all their school bullshit and letting them run me into the ground like I'm some sort of magician or wishing well. 

No yelling, no screaming, no reminding. They can get behind all they want but they aren't crying to me about it. Their father is going to be the kind and loving shoulder they can whine to or cry on; or at least try to. I don't think they're going to get very much compassion from him. I think now that they have been getting way too much compassion actually and it's led to a situation where they'd rather talk about something rather than do something about it. There is such a thing as talking something to death. I've reached the end of my rope. I'm tired of talking and talking and talking and nothing changes. I write reminder notes until my fingers bleed and it does nothing. Their eyes glaze over and they don't even see them anymore. 

So, no more reminding. I'm letting people take care of their own problems. I've got my own to deal with and they don't leave me very much time to listen to repetitive nonsense.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Secret Book of John -- The One

The Secret Book of John, an excerpt titled "The One."

A spirit appeared to John and told him that he would teach him of unimaginable things:
"I asked if I might understand this and it said to me, The One is a sovereign that has nothing over it. It is god and father of all, the invisible one that is over all, that is incorruptible, that is pure light at which no eye can gaze. 

The One is the invisible spirit. We should not think of it as a god or like a god. For it is greater than a god, because it has nothing over it and no lord above it. It does not exist within anything inferior to it, since everything exists within it alone. It is eternal, since it does not need anything. For it is absolutely complete. It has never lacked anything in order to be completed by it. Rather, it is always absolutely complete in light. The One is: 

illimitable, since there is nothing before it to limit it,
unfathomable, since there is nothing before it to fathom it, 
immeasurable, since there was nothing before it to measure it,
invisible, since nothing has seen it,
eternal, since it exists eternally,
unutterably, since nothing could comprehend it to utter it,
unnamable, since there is nothing before it to give it a name. 

The One is the immeasurable light, pure, holy, immaculate. The One is unutterable and is perfect in incorruptibility. No that it is part of perfection or blessedness or divinity: it is much greater. 

The One is not corporeal and it is not incorporeal.

The One is not large and it is not small. 

It is impossible to say, 
"How much is it?" or "What kind is it?"

For no one can understand it. 

The One is not among the things that exist, but it is much greater. Not that it is greater. Rather as it is in itself, it is not a part of the eternal realms or of time. For whatever is part of a realm was once prepared by another. Time was not allotted to it, since it receives nothing from anyone: what would be received would be on loan. The one who is first does not need to receive anything from another. Such a one beholds itself in its light. 

The One is majestic and has an immeasurable purity. 

The One is a realm that gives a realm, life that gives life, a blessed one that gives blessedness, knowledge that gives knowledge, a good one that gives goodness, mercy that gives mercy and redemption, grace that gives grace. 

Not as if the One possesses all this. Rather it is that the One gives immeasurable and incomprehensible light. 

What shall I tell you about it? It's eternal realm is incorruptible, at peace, dwelling in silence, at rest, before everything. 

It is the head of all realms, and it sustains them through its goodness. 

We would not know what is ineffable, we would not understand what is immeasurable, were it not for what has come from the father. This is the one who has told these things to us alone."


It sounds as though John received quite an earful from this angelic spirit! How do you measure something so infinite in it's infinity? How does the human mind grasp it without going insane?

"The one who is first does not need to receive anything from another."

So he does not crave our adulation or obeisance, he simply offers to show us the mystery behind the curtain. It's free. No sit, kneel, pray, sit, kneel, pray required. No long chants or prayers at a certain time of the day and no facing a certain direction. There is no ritual required to summon him and no hoops to jump through because he is already here! We just have to open our ears.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

IMPORTANT: Caution Concerning the Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica!

Today I tripped across a horrifying piece of information which led me round and round, down the rabbit hole. The result was spiritually fortifying in the end but it had it's dicey moments. I was fairly shaken up.

I tripped across a reference to an "Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica" and my initial gut reaction was, "Yeah, ok. The EG. I know what that is." But I kept reading and the context seemed... off. Something was wrong. I did more poking around in curiosity. I am glad I did because I'd really hate to be suckerpunched with an accusation of Satanism in the future. 

No. The two organizations are NOT the same at all and I really want to give everyone a broad word of caution here. 

The Ecclesia Gnostica( is a little more formal that I personally like. It feels a bit too close to ritualized religion for my taste because they used the form of the Catholic Church as a base guideline in things like prayers and whatnot(I don't see any need for it. I just belt out what I'm feeling and leave it at that. I'm a simple person I guess.) but they do have all the basics of gnosticism at their core. They are truly gnostic and espouse the notion of freedom in learning while keeping your sanity and your community safe from harm. They're really not too different than any gnostic community in the past.

The Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica on the other hand is downright Satanism. There is no wiggle room here, no chance for a misinterpretation or any confusion. They're Satanists and not to be confused with true gnosis. Satanism is gnosis run amock, like a newly reformed Liberal suddenly declaring that man should not wear clothes, joins a nudist colony, grows all his own food, and starts licking tree bark because his cult leader says that it's the way to God's Garden. That's about as simple a comparison as I can make. Satanists take the snake in the Garden metaphor and run absolutely crazy with it. Oh, and they love to do magic, invoking evil spirits like Set.

A man named Aleister Crowley built the EG Catholica and he pretty much took the Book of Revelation, made all the nastiest characters sound like saints and then tried to spoon-feed it to the masses. "Babylon" is a good thing, doncha know! 

Here's the creed. I marked the Satanic bits in red so you can see what I mean. Green means questionable. Italicized bits are my own comments.

I believe in one secret and ineffable LORD; and in one Star in the Company of Stars of whose fire we are created, and to which we shall return; and in one Father of Life, Mystery of Mystery, in His name CHAOS, the sole vicegerent of the Sun upon the Earth; and in one Air the nourisher of all that breathes.
And I believe in one Earth, the Mother of us all, and in one Womb wherein all men are begotten, and wherein they shall rest, Mystery of Mystery, in Her name BABALON.
And I believe in the Serpent and the Lion, Mystery of Mystery, in His name BAPHOMET.
And I believe in one Gnostic and Catholic Church of Light, Life, Love and Liberty, the Word of whose Law is THELEMA. (Made up name which refers to Thelemic mysticism and Satanic magic.)
And I believe in the communion of Saints. (Maybe not Satanic but some feel it's pretty close-- distinctly pagan if it comes right down to it-- asking dead people/spirits to do things for you, even if it is to pray for you. Why not just pray to him directly?)
And, forasmuch as meat and drink are transmuted in us daily into spiritual substance, I believe in the Miracle of the Mass. (Transubstantiation: magic and a form of idolatry.)
And I confess one Baptism of Wisdom whereby we accomplish the Miracle of Incarnation. (This one confuses me, quite honestly. You're baptized once and all of a sudden you have infinite wisdom? And the 'miracle of incarnation' refers to Jesus, not individual human beings.)
And I confess my life one, individual, and eternal that was, and is, and is to come.


Now let's see what the Ecclesia Gnostica has to say in their catechism: 

A Brief Credo
We acknowledge one great invisible God, the Unknown Father, the Aeon of Aeons, who brought forth with His providence: the Father, the Mother and the Son.
We acknowledge the Christos, the self-begotten Son, born from the virginal and ineffable Mother in the high Aeons: who in the Logos of God came down from above to annul the emptiness of this age and restore the fullness of the Aeon.
We acknowledge the Holy Spirit, our celestial Mother and consoler, who proceeded from Herself, a gift of Herself out of the silence of the unknown God.
We seek the gathering of the sparks of light from the sea of forgetfulness and we look to the glories of eternal life in the Fullness. Amen.


Hopefully the contrast will be obvious to you. 

Gnostics don't worship any devil. The closest to 'hell' gnostics teach is that when you die you will be in a layer of spiritual existence farthest away from the good god(like layers in an onion) but it's not a place of torture and mayhem. It's simply a separation and longing for him more pronounced than what we feel in this material life.  There are layers between that furthest reach and his center; gnostic texts vary in ideas concerning this but the basic one states that depending on how close to him you are in life then that is how close you will be to him in death. But- and here's the cliffhanger- you get the chance to do it better in your next life. So you're not there forever.

Now a gnostic who has found gnosis and then turned their back on it well... there's a source of disagreement there if you're comparing opinions being stated from one codex to another in the Nag Hammadi scrolls.

I can tell you this much about ex-gnostics: they left a hell-on-earth when they died. Look at what harm Pope/Saint Augustine did. His confused gnostic-then-dogmatic/literalist rantings still confuse Catholics to this day. They can't decide whether to worship him or stick him with hot pokers and wish the man a very nice eternity in Judeo-Christian 'Hell.'  For such a smart man he really did a quirky 180.

I don't think Augustine should have been beatified but I also believe that the Catholics didn't have much of a choice because of the cohesiveness he promoted and in the end his turn-tail political stance was in the Catholic church's favor since he sufficiently recanted most of his gnostic learning-- publicly at least. Personally, I think the man created his own hell and had to live with it the rest of his mortal life. He was very conflicted and you can see it in all his writings. Hopefully he did better the next time around.

In any case, I just wanted to shout out a word of caution here to people concerning any hokey sounding gnosticism. Check the background of what and who you're reading about and then take it from there. People who claim they're gnostic could be blowing smoke up your arse and trying to get you involved in some really dangerous stuff. Research what you're being told and trust your heart. 

The Catholic church does teach what gnosticism is so their congregation can stay away from it and this is why as soon as a Catholic receives confirmation of your gnosis they immediately shut down the conversation. They don't want to be 'tainted.'  Pointing out that their clergy hasn't mentioned the gnostic sects which have been wiped out in the Pope's name or any of the other atrocities committed in Christ's name... eh. It all tends to fall on deaf ears. 

"That was the past. The Church apologized for it." Yeah. Keep telling yourself that. They colluded with the Nazis and have never apologized for that or for Langeudoc. Which is better- to be a Jew killer or to kill gnostics? Apparently they're both in the same league. We're not worth an apology. And to say it wont ever happen again is pure naivety.  It's still happening in China and Tibet with the Mandaeans! So yes, gnostics are still persecuted and killed for their beliefs.

I have a better time talking to atheists than Catholics. At least we can agree on how nuts literalism is. 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Save the Surprise?! Bizarre Satanic Olympics Ceremony

Alright, so I thought I'd peek at the Olympics news. Lordy I wish I hadn't. Remember that dream I had about the clouds and gas? Lo and behold I found this video of the Olympics opening ceremony rehearsal and nearly fell off my bed n horror. Here's a screenshot of the vid:

Click on the picture and it'll take you to(in another window/tab) the page which has the video itself. Pay careful attention to these things as you watch:

In chronological order:

"Save the Surprise" is flashing constantly on the big screens at the top of the stadium. Save what surprise???

See the upright faux tree looking thing almost in the center of the floor plan? A May pole, probably. Just to the right of it you'll see a chimney with smoke coming up out of it constantly. Some reports said that it smelled like sulfur. Not sure if that's true or not but it's true that the smoke kept coming up out of it the whole show and there were a few others scattered around if you look closely.

Oh and look at the lovely clouds floating around across the 'sky' in the arena as part of the set up. The smoke + clouds are what nearly made me have a twitch fit because of the dream. But it gets better. Keep reading and watching. The videographer did a great job at pointing things out.

Notice all the pyramids across the top of the stadium? Illuminati symbolism.

Skip the Mary Poppins stuff if that isn't your cuppa tea but when you get to 8:43 and slowly watch it then it'll all come together and you'll be literally saying to yourself exactly what the video compiler wrote at the top of the screen, "What the fuck is this hell?"

What hell he's talking about is the 'building' to the left goes through a bizarre metamorphosis which leads to GUNFIRE in several directions and, the house implodes and suddenly the stadium looks like it's burning in the fires of Hell. Freakier than I can even explain. Just watch it!!

Just as the gunfire rings out you see in big lit letters behind it, ".... for everyone!"  I'd love to see what the first part of that sentence was. What, 'Bullets for everyone?" I seriously doubt it was 'cupcakes' for everyone.

10:56  The song of "I'm Forever Blowing Bubbles" with everyone(literally!) blowing soap bubbles was.... disturbing, honestly. Smoke and bubbles wafting upwards... I don't get it. It might be a Brit thing but after the dream I had it just gave me the heebie jeebies especially with as somber as everyone sounded.

11:30 The almost 15 second nod to Amy Winehouse was kinda nice.

12:00 I didn't get the reference to the heartbeat/lighting going around the audience... and GOSH? The lighted paneling on the ground floor was odd. Like a smiley face or something with the word GOSH underneath. Anyone have a clue what that is?

Starting at 13:35 you'll see a bizarre ritual playing out and the videographer spells it all out. This was actually vid taping of the 2008 Beijing Olympics where they mimicked the Tavistock bus explosion. Creepier than all get out. I think the videographer included this piece to show you that it's not just this year's Olympics which has some questionable choreography; supposedly this stuff has been going on for a while. I haven't a clue how long. Haven't researched it yet.

Now even if you skip to the cute little singing part on top of the bus and dismiss all the symbology you have to still admit that the whole thing is downright odd. "Gonna give you my love. Want a whole lot of love." For 13 victims? What?!!  The song is seriously at odds with the act. So I'd advise watching it from 13:35 on through to get the whole gist of what's going on to see the spectacle for what it is. And Aleister Crowley, remember that name that's mentioned. I have a blog post about him in a few days. 


Update: I wrote this blog post on the 29th and forgot to post it. Now today when I did publish it I went back to click on the video to watch it again and... it's deleted! This message appeared: 

"Sorry, "Satanic Olympics opening ceremony rehearsal 2012 London" was deleted at 2:20:06 Mon Jul 30, 2012.

Vimeo has removed or disabled access to the following material as a result of a third-party notification by International Olympic Committee claiming that this material is infringing: Satanic Olympics opening ceremony rehearsal 2012 London."
I looked for it in YouTube and it's not there, either. They were very thorough. 

Sorry, folks. This is the New World Order censorship at it's finest. I'm just glad I found it and wrote the blog post with descriptions of what was in the vid before it was deleted. I'm very sorry you can't see the vid anymore. It was instructive, to say the least.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Watermelon Symmetry

I had to engage the flash on my camera to get this phenomenon to show up clearly but I assure you this IS a watermelon! The green rind got flashed so bright it whited out. 

Isn't the symmetry of the growth swirls intriguing?!  I already scooped out a bit of the center(yum!!) before I thought about grabbing my camera to show you this gorgeous bit of Nature. 

Hubby said, "Well, you know that watermelons are basically big ovaries, right?" ... gag. That took some of the fun right out of the moment. But here's the picture. Enjoy. 

What beautiful sights have caught your eye lately?